July 16, 2010
Few days ago, I published press release, what has been seen by national TV's and radios. It is also available for overseas for International audience. It was surprise for press, I finally got trought that, I am originally Finnish, not Russian. I think, that is the most difference between my news and public news. Many other issue basing on that hype, example stories about "hooker jobs" or stealing from jobs, are all hype of those people, who want to push me more down, because I was not like usual Finns, who coming working here with their Finnish employers and huge per-diem money. I have been all time employed only with American companies with low income, even I had good start in my career ladder, it was not enough to those, who compare what other Finns earns. I could be in that level now if I could use that last 7 seven years to go up in my Computer career, instead that never ending sinking.
What was published in Press release it is that same, what I have telling this website for years now. Here is exact copy for those, who did not see or hear it anywhere.
PRESS RELEASE July 11, 2010
Former Tarja Virpi Makinen, now citizen of United States with name Amanda Biltwater, has been left out of any communication about reasons for thought reading and their broadcasting.
Weatherford, TX - July 11, 2010 - Amanda Biltwater announces she hasnever been instructed, informed or any way discussed about thought reading, what she has been victim of 20-30 years.
Amanda Biltwater is daughter of already deceased Finnish parents. At November 2008 this Finnish citizen got United States citizenship, after 14 years later, when she started work in US, having "so called Green Card", (Resident Alien card).
Her worklife got extremerely unusual problems, what lead her well started computer career and studies for sickleaves, unemployment, continuos victimized situation, where there was no help from lawyers, supervisors, family, friends, police, courts, politicians, healthcare nor from own husband or boyfriend.
Problem for all work related and personal problems have been thought reading, what has been secretly done for decades without nobody has discussed about it, why it is done and how she should live with. She has not been in jail not in Mental institution. She has been taken "with police, in handcuffs" to mental checkup, what all is wrongfully spread as she was convicted and hospitalized. Finns has never have had interest to explain, why they have done this.
She lost her long term full time Computer Technician job 2003 and got some recovery from "nervous breakdown", what these thought readers caused by pressuring her brain and spreading awful lies about her to neighborhood. After that, she was unable to get or stay permanently for any job, because there were always dead threats or pressure with brain use was too much to handle to her or her coworkers. She started her own investigation, where that all basing on and answer is - her thoughts and other brain activity has been recorded and spread with broadcasting companies all over the world. This all has also created so much hate here in United States, in Finland and other countries, that she has lost her jobs, marriage, places to live, friends and finances without any instance was willing to discuss about it with her and without chances to get handled properly in any courts. Same time US - and most likely many other countries, uses 90% of their broadcasting time wondering, what she thinking and doing in her daily life, when in real life they should use time to handle these crimes and lawsuits, what she filed to get some compensation, what this awful privacy break caused and still causing every day. Her marriage proposal announcement got lot of attention, but never lead even one visit from man, what she announced to marry, because this thought reading creates so much unreality for all parties.
Amanda Biltwater has already published 3 books about all of this, what basically tells differences between Finnish and American daily life details (How to survive with Finns), how this thought reading affected TV anchors, when they basically talking to her in their live broadcasting (Sweetest Taboo - Anderson Cooper) and log comments and notes since 2006 as in her original website was at www.traveldreamer1.com (Until Now, www.traveldreamer1.com). All of them are available from Amazon.com and from author.
She is never interviewed with Press of this and with this web based release, she want to tell, Finland abusing their current and former citizens, way what causing to them awful personal, health and financial situations, what all she wants to spread to press and be part of actual problem handling, because she has other type of details what current broadcasting companies airing in their daily news.
For more information, please visit www.AmandaBiltwater.com or contact directly to Amanda Biltwater to 202-241-0861. There is no any other person authorized to discuss about this, because they all are "pressured to lie or deny any knowledge about thought reading by unknown entity".
About Her Company
Amanda Biltwater's business label Number One LLC, never got proper location and all business activities has been just website. She lives currently in her little cottage in Texas, what she built all by her own hands with very little money, staying in it in all freezing and rainy nights, while building it up, because there was no financial help available. She has already announced International meeting in her yard, what will be held in August 2010.
July 9, 2010
Independence Day celebrations was "biggest ever", what this little tiny town has ever seen, that was what I heard and "needless to mention" - all this happened because of me and my special situation. It was not done for Congressman's visit, what of course is also big thing to this small town. It is sad to see, there is still not interest to let me "introduce myself and talk couple words about why I am in this city and what is my situation". It always goes that way - "she is too shy to say a word". Even, I liked very much this huge parade, what they created, but I certainly was disappointed that ignorance, this little town get so much attention, because I came here, but they count me still as "piece of trash" because of my victimized situation, what caused my long term financial sinking. Been attended now couple times for Democrats meetings, I certainly see value, when high level political person actually comes to this town and gives handshake. If it stays for that and issues are not handled, it just creates more problems
. So far, it has not give "any advantages", but as always, I am kind of patient and I giving time for actions - this response got delay with my never ending computer problems, what should be now in better condition, when I got my Windows Vista working in this almost ten years old computer, what I have been updateding. I also noticed that, some people still understand how huge technician skills I had in my working years, what skills I still could use to get that old computer updated and working with newer technology.
If that Congressman visit was only done to "create imaginary boyfrienship", people should already know, I am not for that "type of work", but good discussion could raise issues up proper way, not that way how some people sees it - I am just waste maker! This Congressman saw and hear in his own eyes, I do not have anything to do with that, people can hear what I thinking. It should create different type of discussion in Washington, why this going on and who all are involved.
What coming to national political news, it was in air couple days ago, we have "United States of Biltwater". It is not surprise, TV anchors say this, because they handling that feed - my personal life details and thoughts and my brain activity - day and night. Most of them already "discussing directly" over their live TV programs, creating some type of friendships, what we all know now, has lead also for "personal interest" as my proposal for Mr. Cooper can be counted. It is very hard to contact to these "big faces" in real life and that has been true also in case of him, I only met him in his book signing event, got a handshake, couple words and his personal signature to my book. My issues has been "in his mind and in his TV program" so many years, I could imagine, he get bored or "missing me badly", if he could not hear, what I doing or thinking. Same time, there has been hate, I doing "wrong things" as moving to Texas instead New York etc. All this has to do with fact, this discussion and publicity, what these anchors and other public people have created, have not increased my chances for "better life", what I could count, more money, more contacts and more discussion with me about this all because after all, this is my life, not their.
Other today's topic is - some people counting how many phone calls I get, how many cars are parked in my yard at night etc., what has created problems as who earlier called or parked, do not do that at all or doing more rarely because of that counting. Normal people who lived normal life (I do not have normal life, but I certainly count myself as normal) do not like to be bothered way, what my life is now and that is reason, they do not want to keep contact. Those hundreds and thousands people (I heard it later) who followed me, when I "drove laps between Atlanta and West coast", trying to get living place and jobs over there, those people never contacted personally to me either, but most people counted, "they were my friends". Basing on some car tags, they certainly knew my situation and seeing their driving habits and speed, they also get trapped with troopers, what never have been problem for me, because I drive in speed limit and calmly, what certainly was not same with those people. In some situations, especially in Las Vegas, I have seen these fans are young boys and girls (who may do not know, I am not that young anymore) and basing on that, what media had fed to their head, they expected to see some "rich and pretty celebrity" and they were always disappointed, when my financial situation pressured me "looking as normal poor as any citizen of little town". All real celebrities know, fans are not necessary friends, because some of them want your money, your used clothes, purses or anything, what they can tell "I have seen this person". Very few of fans could express real friendship and help their idol in real life situations - I have seen that, if they help, others create problems. Even law enforsement do that, "you cannot contact to this person, because you are normal and she is big" - no wander, my normal life sinking because that type of safety do not support my life. For example, I still have problems to make a calls, get my phonecalls and voicemails, snail mail has same problems etc. I have already contacted to local pd - about burglary, what I was victim of and meaning also, I am here visible and I am not hiding same time, when I expecting they and other instances should handle my several court cases and crime reports, what I have filed long time ago. That street talk and noisy night life, what this country side street have, is not the place to discuss for me - I like my quiet life and serious discussion should be done in proper places in proper time.
Totally other thing is that, I certainly am part of US history, but there is no way to find anything else in print with real names and details - except this website, what is by the way written by me, Amanda Biltwater, in my basic English. How many language mistakes I still make is not news, but what is my topics, it is. This issue could not wait, I learn proper language, I need to write now and that is what I doing.
July 2, 2010
Happy July 4th, it is second one, what I experiencing as US citizen! (US means United States, by the way, USA is used in International situations, not inside the country). Now it is published by media (YV, radio) thought reading and public yelling has been done purpose of getting confidence! I can tell, there have several other ways to get it without loosing good work history, good financial history, without loosing marriage, friendships, relatives and most of all, without loosing health. Whoever made that type of plan to "fix my life" should be charged for abuse. If this "confidence fixing" has something to do with shyness or "following rules" as "talking only when it is your turn", then schools needs to change those rules, because it is all about, you tried to get good numbers at school "by following rules" and results are, you were top 3, but "no confidence to be top 3". Because schools have no practices to get confidence NORMAL way, what I see have to be public speaking (not yelling kukko kiekuu - that is not public speaking). It was not confidence problme, because I basically got all jobs what I applied (what was available to apply) until this thought reading mess reduced my chances to get anything.
In adult age that confidence training should be done ONLY THE WAY, WHA IS APPROVED BY TARGET, AS PERSON TO BE TRAINED, what is not happened in my case, what tells me, whole system is just created expressing hate for persons, who go to work and live to other country, especially to United States. It still keeping up that hate - my old friends and even relatives do not contact and I know, the most biggest reason is my poor financial situation. I did not have problems to pay my bills in my Finnish life, not in years, when I worked here in US and lived alone. When this so called "confidence training" took my chances to continue in my Computer Technician position or get that next one, it started chain, where media rather kept yelling me than taking me to interview about this "thought reading system". I heard it, these same people, who wanted this confidence training, wanted also "it cannot give any advantage" and that has been media's excuse, we cannot see you at all (because some people may see, I can talk English, talk in public and most of , I am not an idiot). That is true, I have not get any advantage about this system. There is other word to tell, what it has done - damage and that they forget to include to their plan, how they handling it! For conclusion, they did not have a plan, how to survive after "confidence training", because it has not been any kind of planned thing. That is why I keep charging related people and groups, because it is crime what they did and they need to compensate my losses to me.
My question is , it they think this kind of pressure cretes confidence, where they thought I could use it, because contacts are ruined with this too, when phonecalls are scrambled or rerouted to somebody else, emails disappearing, mails going to others hands (except bills) and even job applications are put to trash even in case you are called to interview for that job and they use excuse "if we cannot find your application, we cannot interview either".
For my opinion, this whole thing has not been authorized by any rule or person and whoever has been involved to start or keep it up will be charged in court to compensate my losses. I also want to know, how many other "students have been in similar training" and how many of them is STILL ALIVE? If last number is one, only me and it is smaller than first number, I could call this as International terror and charges should be that way. If it is country sponsored, people who going legally to work to other country are "pressured until they die", it is surely issue of United Nation, put this type of country under other type of rules. I have already contacted to UN about this issue many, many times. I have also heard comments "they always die" and that support my requirements, this country torturing their own citizens causing financial losses, health problems and most of case, dead. How this type of procedure is accepted in this century?
I had a chance to get new life in United States, but all chances is ruined with this "you cannot get any advantage". I have seen all this all the time as very serious International problem, that is why I have taken contacts to highest leaders also when local pd already told long time ago, "we do not handle this at all". They obviously knew where problem coming from but not stop they operations and my question is why? They knew, I am Finnish origin and they knew there were Russians around, why they did not react?
What coming to that issue, we found out, there have been Russian spies involved of this - I can see, most of crimes, what was in street talk put to my name is done by them and rest of - local people, who cannot accept foreign's at their work or in their neighborhood. You heard it already - I am always right, count for this opinion, because there are crimes also in Finland and other European countries and it never been me. For examples, I was in Stockholm, when former Swedish Prime minister was killed, I was in Helsinki, when cruise boat from Estonia sink etc. Now later, I can put these issues together, when we all know, this connection has been so long time and Russian spies are involved. How many others they using for same system?
June 25, 2010
Please, translate from Finnish language yourself.
Tällä kertaa kirjoitan suomeksi - englanninkieliset voivat käyttää internetin käännös palveluja. Osa ongelmaani on, ettei sukulaiseni osaa tarpeeksi englantia eikä heillä ole hajuakaan mihin tämä kuuntelun salaaminen on johtanut, kun siitä ei ole koskaan puhuttu kanssani.
Huonosta osanotosta johtuen, tapaaminen supistui esitelmäkseni. Tässä 10 aihettani
1. Tarjasta Amandaksi - Saadessani Yhdysvaltain kansalaisuuden pari vuotta sitten, muutin nimeni Tarja Virpi Mäkisestä Amanda Biltwater iksi.
2. Nykypäivän tavallisuus - Nykyinen arkipäiväni on vieläkin Texasin asunnon lisärakentamista ja tontin käytön suunnittelua samalla kun asun siinä. Toinen todellisuus, paluu työelämään tai avioliitto riippuu siitä miten tämä ajatustenluku soppa korvataan ja miten sitä käsitellään uudessa tilanteessa. Seuraavalla työpaikalla pitää olla mahdollisuus olla pitempään kuin pari päivää, ilman varmuutta siitä en edes aloita.
3. Yli 30 vuotta Suomessa - vaikea uskoa, mutta tosiasia on että olen elänyt, opiskellut ja työskennellyt Suomessa 30 vuotta ennen Yhdysvaltoihin muuttoani joten sekä kielitaitoni että muut tietoni pohjautuvat niihin aikoihin. Se on myöskin syynä siihen että on hyvin loukkaavaa että alkuperääni aina väännetään jonnekin muualle.
4. Työelämä Amerikassa - kun sain työluvan 1994 Yhdysvaltoihin, oletin että voin parantaa sekä kielitaitojani että tietokoneuraani, joka vaikeuksista huolimatta saikin hyvän alun, mutta päätyi "hermojeni rikkomiseen" työpaikalla 2003. Ajatustenluvun käyttö ja erityisesti "aivoihin komentelu" ja henkeni uhkaaminen aiheuttivat pysyvät vauriot, jotka vieläkin vaivaavat nukkumishäiriöinä ja kauhukuvina. Useimmat rikokset ovat tapahtuneet työpaikoilla, joten korvauksien saaminen aiheutuneesta haitasta on oleellinen. Kuka korvaukset maksaa, jos yhteydenpito on ollut toisen maan käsissä, on eri asia.
5. Aivotoiminnan- ja ajatustenluku - vieläkin kuulen että monet ajattelevat ettei luvusta ole mitään haittaa. Ehkä pelkästä luvusta ei olekaan, mutta koska luku tapahtuu elektronisesti ja tieto on vuotanut tai se on tahallaan annettu luvattomiin käsiin, yksityisasioideni levittäminen aiheuttaa suurta haittaa. Ensin se tuhosi avioliittoni, monet työpaikkani, sukulais- ja ystävyyssuhteet sekä myös aiheutti taloudelliset vaikeudet, koska asiaa ei missään käsitelty kanssani eikä korvauksia maksettu.
6. Tiedotusvälineiden soppa - en ole koskaan kuullut mistään muusta asiasta puhuttavan niin usein ja joka kanavalla kuin minun tilanteestani ja kaikki tarinat mitä tuuteista tulee ulos - niin Suomessa kuin täällä Yhdysvalloissa, perustuvat toisten ihmisten juttuihin ja ajatusten lukuun. Minua ei ole koskaan kuulusteltu eikä haastateltu ja voin vain todeta että televisioiden ja radioiden jutuista on enemmän kuin puolet valhetta ja pelkkää puppua, mikä on osaltaan aiheuttanut vaikeuksia sekä työelämässä että yksityiselämässä.
7. Kansainvälinen poliittinen riita - mikä muu kuvaa tilannetta paremmin kuin tämä. On selvää, että jokainen maahanmuuttanut on tekemisissä myös toisen maan kanssa ja minun tapauksessani, koska ajatuksiani on julkaistu useassa maassa, jopa niin että useat maat ovat väittäneet että olen ollut henkilökohtaisesti siellä, mistä voin vain todeta että olen ollut viimeiset 4 vuotta ainoastaan Yhdysvalloissa ja kukaan ei voi olla kahdessa tai useammassa paikassa samaan aikaan.
8. Oikeusjutut - koska mahdollisuuteni normaaliin työelämään ovat vähäiset, muut haitat ja hengenuhkauskset, olen vaatinut korvauksia sekä rikosilmoituksilla poliisille vuodesta 2005, laskulla että tavanomaisilla oikeussyytteillä. Kunnollisen lakiavun saaminen on vieläkin haittana, koska toinen osapuoli aina tietää samat tiedot ja voi välittömästi jopa estää lakiavun saamisen, niin kuin on käynyt monesti kohdallani.
9. Kansainvälinen ratkaisu kansainväliseen ongelmaan - ei ole oikein että juttua ainoastaan puidaan Yhdysvalloissa tai vain Suomessa, koska muut maat ovat olleet myös ajatustenlukijoita ja riippumatta siitä kuka sen on aloittanut, asia pitää käsitellä kokonaisuutena, huomioonottaen sen etten ole rikollinen, en ole ollut mistään syytettynä kun laitetta on alettu käyttää, joten minä olen se joka on suurimman rikoksen uhri. Muut haitat ja mitä kansainväliset riidat ovat aiheuttaneet, tulisi sopia kansainvälisissä kokouksissa ennen kuin lisähyökkäyksiä tapahtuu. Suomen osuus asiankäsittelemättömyydessä on suuri ja siksi painostan asian käsittelyä niin ettei tällaista ylenkatsomista voi ohittaa noin vain, koska se aiheuttaa haittaa myös muille. Se on myös johtanut turvallisuusuhkaan, joka aiheuttaa myös sen, ettei sukulaiseni eivatkä entiset ystäväni uskalla tai halua edes keskustella asiasta kanssani. Minun mollaamiseni mielenterveysvikaiseksi ei asiaa auta, koska todellisuus on toinen, olen rikoksen uhri enkä ole koskaan ollut hoidettavana mielenvikaisuudesta. Hoitotilanteet ovat olleet joko viikon tutkimuksia tai valheiden perusteella tehtyjä ilmoituksia. Minut on viety sairaalaan työpaikalta, josta myöhemmin kuulin että esimieheni väitti minun varastaneen jotain ja soitti poliisit. En sairaalaan mennessä edes tiennyt mikä oli syynä, koska en ollut osallisena mihinkään. Tällaiset vikailmoitukset pilasivat sairaushistoriani, mikä myös johti siihen etten saanut työpaikkojen tarjoamaa sairausvakuutusta mielenterveyshoitohistorian takia.
10. Raha - kuka maksaa ja kenelle - Laskuni 2005 Washingtonille antoi mahdollisuuden käsitellä asia ennen kuin se paisui nykyiselle tasolle, mutta silloisiin kirjeisiini, faxeihin ja tapaamisiin kukaan ei vastannut. Tilanne on edelleen sama, näen asian kohdaltani Yhdysvaltain ja Suomen välisenä, josta kummatkin ovat velvollisia korvaamaan usean vuosieni taloudelliset ja muut menetykset. Kokonaan eri asia on, kuka korvaa Yhdysvaltain menetykset, kun monet ns. luonnonkatastrofit ovat ihmisten aloittamia tai tekniikalla suurennettuja. Näen asian edelleen niin että koska minua hyväksi käytetään, Yhdysvallat joutuu aina hyökkäysten kohteeksi, joten korvausten maksaminen olisi asia mikä helpottaisi hyväksikäytön haittoja. Toinen ratkaisu, mikä on ollut kiusanani jo monet vuodet - hengenuhkaamiseni, todennäköisesti aiheuttaa samanlaisen terroriaallon eikä riitojen ratkaiseminen tällä tavalla ole minkään maan lakien mukaista, erityisesti vielä, kun olen tarjonnut ratkaisua ja "syy ja seuraus" tutkimustuloksia sekä Yhdysvalloille että Suomelle. Ongelmanani on ollut koko ajan että tieto menee vääriin käsiin, eivätkä ne, joille tieto on osoitettu ja joiden pitäisi olla kiinnostunut siitä, ole kiinnostuneet edes lukemaan juttujani eivätkä kysymään lisätietoja. Olen jo kauan tarjonnut ja jopa vaatinut saada tuntia CNN:n AC360:ltä, mutta en ole saanut sitä heiltä paperille enkä minkäänlaista korvaustarjousta sen paremmin kuin vastausta avioliittotarjoukseen. Kaikki tämä on olisi voitu estää jos asiasta olisi keskusteltu ajoissa kanssani. Sekä Suomella että Yhdysvalloilla on ollut tieto ajatuksieni luvusta, myös muut EU maat ovat matkoillani nähneet tilanteen, mutta eivät ole asiaan puuttuneet. Koska asia on ongelma joka maassa, en näe syytä että minua pakotetaan muuttamaan taas, kun parempaa ratkaisua ei ole tarjolla. Olen varma, että seuraava ajatustenlukutapaus ei aiheuta samanlaista sotkua, siksi että olen julkaissut tapauksen vaiheet ja siksi on tiedossa, mitä voidaan tehdä sen estämiseksi ettei tällaista tapahtu toista kertaa kenellekään muulle.
June 22, 2010
My first meeting day here in Texas cottage is close by and some cancellations has come and rest are basing on what current political situation let happen next. It is absolutely not acceptable, example my phonecalls are banned, I know it because I waited quite long to get text message from my bank and it did not come basing their automated code system. Calling to local pd did not give much help, because they see it is so small issue or even know, where my calls going and do not cut that banning. I already have changed phone company and phone device several times, so it will not help.
I finally invite people to my home and this type of action make it just harder, because callers thinking I do not want to answer or I am not even same person. Over all, that idea, " she can have only one friend" has been so sick, I could not imagine any from health care side even say it, knowing, it some day coming to my ears too. It is abuse, if it is domestic violence, in my case could include also previous jobs and this type of system should be cut long time ago, but no one did nothing to stop it. Except me. It is not word game, if I say, I literally end up to Washington with this problem, because I think most people know, I already inform about this problem during previous administration and to Finland, what should give instructions, how to live with this type of stress, what prevent normal working life, but not create any money to cover losses.
Latest comment for reason to keep it has been "it create better confidence", what it is hard to understand, when same time all base for normal confidence is destroyed, means first marriage, jobs, peaceful housing, good work history and finally good financial history. I could create good confidence with good work history ladder and peaceful private life, what should include my real relatives and friends could visit here too. Now most of them are so sick and tired about this hype and most of do not even believe that this "takakylän likka Heinäsuolta" is even same, who was already beaten with her first teacher about quiet talking voice. Training for confidence certainly should include lot of interviews and lot of real life talks front of people. I still wait that first American media interview and that is one reason, why I put these meetings together. Proper information have to reach leaders because this hype causes more catastrophes. It just have to and who creates weather related or other awful accidents, they need to be punished about their actions. Those, who say "they work for me" are out of mind, I never hope these type of disaster happen here in US or anywhere else. I just want that peaceful normal life, what it was earlier. It cannot be same anymore, but it certainly can be peaceful even in TV station, if it includes agreement and real position - at work or in personal life.
It is also possible, voice changers taking my phonecalls and telling what ever jäkäti jäk, to my callers, what certainly make them thinking, I am not same or I am out of mind. Voice changers are very, very big problem, when your voice mail messages can be totally different, what sender sent, now it most likely includes my real phonecalls, where they using my voice - all that of course without my permit and knowledge.
So, who ever reads this, can you finally understand, I am crime victim because of this thought reading. I certainly not be only one, others maybe never knew, they were victims or they did not have a time to tell before they died. I am messenger and messengers should not be punished as any media persons, when they telling real life news
Suomalaiset lomanviettäjät, tällä viikolla on ollut joka päivä yli +35 C, uimavesi sen mukaista. Muistan kyllä joulukuisen lumisateen ja sen että nukuin pakkasessa koirani kanssa vilttikasan alla - lämpimässä. Nyt tuuletus ja ilman viilentäminen on tärkein jokapäiväinen juttu. Sadetta ei ole ollut pariin kuukauteen.
June 16, 2010
I add couple comments about President's yesterday Oval Office speech. It is certainly biggest hit what happened in Gulf coast and it needs to get stopped and damaged cleaned. It is like any other disaster, very costly and leave permanent damages. Basing on that double talk, what still keep going on, it has relations for my situation and it was not surprise, it has been man made problem as this thought reading is, as well. Cleaning needs to be done fast and get that leak stopped even faster. Same urgency should be with this thought and brainactivity leak, what I am victim of, doesn't matter are readers from US, Finland or Russia, it all leads for awful crimes, what example are knowing peoples passwords, security codes and even plans, what creates danger and losses in businesses. I am not only victim, but I am victim who has done years work what that terror doing and unfortunately I have only choice tell results of my investigations to everybody, because those who should get my details do not want to listen or make any actions to stop it. It is big problem, because these terror makers using my information and they using it even I do not say a word, because they read thoughts. I could not stop my thinking, how to get rid of it and get my life going normal way especially when money is tight. If they listening that calculation, they certainly use it for their violent habits and that is why most important is get that connection cut.
You can be sure, I am not only one who has it, so it is must to know how this can be cut without hurting health of person who has it. Other fix is get my financial situation better by handling these court cases little bit faster or even politically, because waiting time is "killing time" and more disasters happen. Overall, problems what basing on Finland basing on lot of that fact, I was not that poor what I am now, so whole my time here is lost for financial sinking, what certainly cost other problems like court cases are not handled basing on reality, friends and relatives do not want to keep touch, because they afraid, they need to pay my bills, what I was earlier able to pay myself. In Finnish life, everybody taking care about their own finances, because in hard time you look help first from government programs, not from your relatives or friends. Those, who have been in "trap in those houses" has seen that problem, there is no help if friends and relatives cannot do that. My financial problems basing on that, I lost my chances for regular working INCOME and reason for it, is this thought reading and how it was spread
What coming for my upcoming meeting, that is perfect time to get discussion about this all, who it started, why and who all should participate to cover damages. I certainly keep that speech, if contacts to attend are sent. So far, there is no phonecalls or emails yet, snail mail is not picked everyday, but so far no responses there either. That much leaders has interest to handle this, even they know, I am and will be middle of this as advisor and investigator as I have been during previous administration - without getting any payments about it.
Suomenkielisille kutsutuille, tämä kutsu on tilaisuus ennennäkemättömään tapaamiseen, jos kaikki kutsutut tulevat paikalle. Se on varmasti myös vaikuttava elämys niille jotka eivät ole ennen Yhdysvalloissa vierailleet. Läheinen pikkukaupunki ja sen hiekkaranta sekä lähiympäristön isot kaupungit, Dallas jne. tarjoavat kaiken sen mitä matkailijat yleensä haluavat nähdä. Vaihtoehtona on myös olla mukana minun joka päiväisessä elämässä, joka tällä hetkellä sisältää talon rakentamisjuttuja ja tarvittavien ja edullisten tarvikkeiden hankkimista tai sitten rahatilanteen ollessa tiukka,. oman tontin siivoamista ja suunnittelua - tai auringonottoa patiolla. Se voi myös sisältää "oikeata työtä", jos saan ratkaisun autoni kuljettamiseen yhdensuuntaisten kuljetusten aikana. Siihen voin ottaa "apulaisen seuraksi."
June 10, 2010
Written and spoken - what you hear?
I am sure, you have heard it already, I will keep so called high level meeting in my little home in Texas. Most invitations are out already and some more may be send later. I also offered my 3 books to be sold in local bookstore, what advertises, they have books from local authors - except mine. They are not interested, even all those 3 books includes so hot details, than I could guarantee, if all that information was in our leaders head couple years ago - when I wrote them, we were now where we are. Including me. But of course, how it always goes, we are not interested because "we thinking it is somebody else than you". Or, because they look so cheap.
Same thing with this meeting, I bet most people toss my invitation to trash and contact only if "big bosses" push them to come. Basing on daily news, "big bosses" are interested and I think, I am again in position to create that diplomacy around this issue, what basically is very International. Finns are invited too, including Prime Minister. We all agree, it is shame, I do not have more fancy place to offer, but in summertime and in this situation, I think environment tells half of problem and after all, Texas summer is sunny and nice and quite hot too. Most people believes only when they sees their own eyes and that should explain that difference why I look like "poorest poor", when same time news telling all kind of stories everyday about my life. Usual picture is, who is in topic just cannot be so poor and that way it always put people thinking, it is actually somebody else. Yes, I am sure, there is plenty of stunts for me too, I have seen them replacing many people, what I know and what I wait to see as person. It is time to realize this is not movie, this is real life and most news people running their news as movies. Fictions, not reality.
If that "International meeting" happens, it will chance a world. It has good chance to change it for good, including fix my personal life and finances (more correct is get some fixes started). Make it happen, whoever is invited. Take it as seeing "local attraction", that what it is in future, because building what I built is not seeing yet anywhere else.
June 3, 2010
We all spent Memorial Day with issues what this current ongoing disaster has added to each others lives. For my life it has add that neverending untrust and "punishment about what I have not done". In my Memorial Day, I missing those people and actions, what I had, before this war has taken them from me, including normal working life. However, I spend my day "with people, who always are with me", those who knows me everywhere, where I going and those, who talks with me as being part of their life too.
Today is again Mr. Cooper's birthday and once again I used my time, imagination and thoughts to bring his life something rememberable. How he take it this time, it is up to his decisions. I think, many people noticed, what meaning this action had in news and in war situation. He has discussed in news about my situation and used that thought reading connection so many years, I really feel, he is part of my life and that is why I had an action to make it for real. If that could fix many other problems, it is good solution, but as all decision, it has pros and cons. With good will and personal connection, it could work, but only if this "do not talk with her personally, ends". So, it is in your hands, Anderson, if you start with interview, what you should be done 3 years ago already. Anyway, Happy Birthday!
I still have plans to invite some people to my new home, invitations are not sent yet, my pile of other work is huge and ongoing job and business related hunting's do not make it any easier. But I will do it and that will be the step make this all for public knowledge - what is real and what is "just lie from newscasters". After all, I am victim and it will not change any time soon, but all actions for better life is help.
May 26, 2010
Oil leak problem in coast is worst ever seen, so is this thought reading leak and damage. Needless to tell, it is word gamers hit and it is time to understand, this type of game do not help anyone.
Looks like it is impossible for some to understand what disability means - it is word about condition, where some type of damage has happened. In my case, some people saying, "she is ok, all limbs work and she is in good condition" others says she is not OK. Well, both are right and wrong. I have all my limbs and I look much better than earlier, but there is years short sleep package, what has taken toll. Do not tell, just take sleeping pills - I do not, because these gas people are still around and even if they are not, how I know, there is no trust anymore. So, my years hunt to get back to work life is in situation, I getting some offers, what most likely are not compatible with my changed situation as it is with this "trucking with strangers". I planned originally drive alone, because driving never has been problem for me - problem was people whose interest was follow what I thinking and some of them just tried to get me out of road with what ever they used. Anybody should be work situation like that, you are afraid to sleep, what causes your ability to work is much lower. I have not said no for work, what can be configured for my special situation, but so far perfect offer is not done and I do not want to see that "nervous breakdown" happen again.
That is why I should work for other type of field, art, media or management in more educated area. Or politics, because those word gamers pressure basing on that, they think I just "haaskaan money" and do nothing. I built this house, it is not perfect, but there was anyone to pressure you have to that much today and yelling to my brain, if I didn't. I usually create goals to myself everyday and if I do not get it done, what happens quite often, because things are complicated, I do not pressure myself about it - I did what I could. I have still pile of paperwork, what needed to be done, but some reason I like to mow lawn or do some other cleaning, because some paperwork creating chain of other paperwork and causes that, I ended up sitting in whole day with papers or with computer to get all papers. I just simply has too much to do, what do not mean I could not start well paid job. Then I could hire professionals doing those special house construction details, what I doing now myself, slowly and with cheap materials. It is all about money.
If they offer well paying job from TV station in area what I applied, I could drop my hammers and let somebody else doing that. But they don't. So far they have no interest even interview for their news, even I and my thoughts are news topic day and night, every single station. So, if all natural disaster terror is to make jobs for some who has nothing, it is word gamers hate. It is time to put that table that way, it is modern world against terror, not Americans against others or any individual countries or other way. We need to work together, that type of word game and hate has no chance to make any actions, what put people or nature to danger. Looks like, there is some details still, what should be discussed - there is still not been that meeting, what I invited 2006 to Dallas - US leaders, Finnish leaders and my family and me. We could get good conversation, what of course, whole world listening. If they do not want to discuss about this, they should pay for me about damages. That what happening now could be prevented with that, but for that, it is too late. It is not too late, what may coming next. They never stop, if proper discussions are not done and things sorted out. If they are done only at night, with guns involved, we all know where it leads. Violence creates violence, talking creates talking.... Right people should be available same time, otherwise it going like it has gone.
My life has been in everybody's mouth, but most people do not care to ask what part is right, what wrong. Basing on people's opinion, what I have done last several years, they are mostly wrong and all basing on what broadcasters feeds out - unless they have seen this website. Did you know, I have not been outside United States at all for 4 years now - and not been in airplane either. How many % was right? 0, I quess!
May 23, 2010
For those, who are first time in this web page, I can tell this website and what it was previously www.traveldreamer1.com
tells briefly about my experiences and everyday troubles living and working legally here in United States. I was born and studied and worked in Finland and moved here 1994. I have been divorced more than 10 years now and currently living in Texas, after being most of time earlier in Atlanta area.
After I lost my job and I was unable to get new one or even live peacefully anywhere, I started investigation about where that all basing and I found out all problems basing on my thoughts and all brain activity (ajatustenluku) has been recorded and published by broadcasters all over the world for many years now, what means also my private life has been spread to news, movies and songs in many countries. This all has created "some type of celebrity" situation for me, where everybody knows me and (hear ) my daily life details and also what happened in my real life 10, 20 or 30 years ago added with all kind of imaginary adds and cultural misunderstandings. Why I complain, if I am "top of the world"? Reason is, it dumped my financial situation lowest ever because I do not get paid for this and all this basing there is no any interviews done and at all and I could not have normal working life anymore. That is why I started this website - to spread correct information and also it is support to my several lawsuits, what I filed to get something back about this all.
Old friends in Finland (Halikko, Salo, Lahti, Järvenpää, Hämeenlinna, Hyvinkää, Riihimäki, Vantaa, Helsinki etc) and also in Atlanta, Las Vegas, Greenville (SC) and here in Texas most likely recognize me regardless of my hair color or outfit change and name change as same as Tarja Virpi Makinen. Those, whose life has changed because they have been "in my memory" and perhaps are mad about their private life is spread to news also, I can tell - do not blame me, I was not told my thoughts has been recorded, I never accept it, I have tried to get it stopped but I do not have control or even exact knowledge who doing it , why it is done and how it can be stopped. For me this is crime against my private life, health and financial life. It has been started already when I lived in Finland and regardless of that, I got legal work permit to work and live (and study) in United States. My family, friends or even husband or boyfriends never have told directly about this, what I am very surprised, while they all have seen how my financial and personal life sinking ( including divorce) with this.
I have built little house (in prairie) here in Texas, what is good example about what financial losses mean. I started from empty lot and built my house with very little money in few months almost alone. I still have lot to do to get it bigger and nicer and I hope my old and new friends can visit and help to build it and same time perhaps enjoy nearby sunny beach. This hint is not only for Finns, but also Americans, who already knows me and my situation. It is necessary to contact upfront if you visit, because nearby traffic just keep increasing and crimes along it too. It is absolutely not acceptable to coming visit middle of the night without PREVIOUS ACCEPTANCE BY ME. All direct problems will be reported for not just to local police, but also federal agencies and to broadcasters. If you show up, do not be surprised when you hear your name in local and national radios and TV's. That happens from second, when I get information who is around, because they broadcasting still, what I thinking (without contacting anywhere or I even say a word). If you think, that is not right, you can complain also about it to local or national agencies to get it stopped (without hurting me).
Yes, and I still planning to get that "New York celebrity wedding" as I proposed awhile ago. Mine and many others life has become so complicated, including this, meeting friends! Mr. Cooper has not given his answer personally yet!
And for those health care head hunters - I am not depressed, so stay out of my body and mind and the property - your previous actions have been reasons for this disaster. I can take better care myself myself!
May 19, 2010
I grew up in environment, where so called insects mean mice and rats, what were handled with traps or poisons. At farm and even cities, it was not big deal. Farms always has them, because there is food available, cities has only if trashes are handled poorly. Being here in US mostly in southern states, is "mandatory rule" to take care about insects weekly, because they will come especially at summer time. Even fanciest homes have "poison treatments" weekly, what keep them showing up at all, but stories like this sounds for some Finns like people themselves "are dirty" if those little animals shows up. Totally other thing is, insects has been used as "war tool", because some people think, it is funny to see how people react. I found first scorpion in my bed in first year when I moved here to US, it did not bit me, but my ex-husband got little spot, when he woke up middle of the night for scorpion's movements.
Later, I have seen similar odd adds, what now later, I can tell , they have been man made things also. Good example was my SC apartment, where management did not care to take them completely. There was some from day one and more later. Being already poisoned with other things, I did not order treatment coming too often and when they came, I and my little puppy got everytime stomach problems or even blood leak. When I moved to Texas, some of these insects moved with my stuff, but all of them disappeared around first freezing night, what is good natural treatment for all unwanted "tenants". Puppy dog survived, because he was treated as family member and "asked to get under the blanket", to beat to freezing night. This dog learned to sleep under the blanket - without bothering me and that was part of my plan to move and do construction same time. Here in south, it is easier to start at winter time, because now at summer, heat make other type of problems, what you cannot fix with pile of blankets. Air conditioning do not help if you do not have enough insulation or even closed walls, what was problem at first after roof and floor was done.
That home project has been good recovery for me, but it is long term project to get it to perfect condition and slow, especially if money is so tight what it has been for me. All that could be prevented, if my issues could be handled earlier, what could prevent my job losses and bankruptcy. Now when people really see how I live, they understand better, what losses mean.
Here in Texas I have volunteered with Habitat of humanity, what builds houses for low income people. It has been good hit for them, because my visits brings many others there and more people get low cost houses and many volunteers as I do, learn new skills around home building, what certainly matches my daily worries, how to make that new home complete with little money. One answer is - do all it yourself. Other answer has been "get the job" - yes, I keep trying to get but my chances are very low in real life until "newscasters and others" take me to real life and this thought reading hassle is handled and covered for me. Many people still thinking I am just "lazy" when I do not working - they should understand, this is crime for me, it takes lot to concentrate when others around repeating all the time my daily life without never explaining why they do that and how they think, how I should handle this type of yelling. Some day I will be back at work, when proper position is open and enough knowledgeable people want me for it. So far, some people thinking - with fear - scaring me at night and all other type of things, they can get me back for job, what I left for same reason - being harassed at work. It will not work after nerve is broken way what causes physical symptoms, what sleeping problems are most serious. I have all the time told, getting this all handled and same way my financial problems be better and it same time fixing many other problems - internationally. Decision makers just never think it that way, even now they can tell " she has always right answers".
So, maybe it is my time to work as politician as I actually has done now for long time without getting paid for it.
May 15, 2010
I did see, it was surprise for many, when I discussed about my residency situation in local Property Tax event. My years use of microphone and passion to keep going regardless most of people think, I cannot talk at all and then they try to take my speaking spots without knowing what is my real situation and plans. Because I have good microphone voice, I have already applied for radio and TV stations, what all so far are tossed it to category "ok, come here", without putting in the paper as agreement. Especially, these New York deals basing on it need to be in paper, because this thought reading crime gave me so big losses than everytime when I go there for book tour or "friend meeting" I have a budget what most people do not like to see. Most complaints coming about that I usually driving where ever I go and people should remember things did not got any better in those days, when I got more skymiles than in the road. Those days come back only if this issue is handled like it is - I am crime victim, I had contacted to so many instances to get my issues solved same time when radios and TV's telling "they actually talking with me in their live TV broadcasting" because of that thought reading and (because some criminals has put cameras to my home without my knowledge and permit.) If some people still sees that is private issue, then why this hell is spread publicly for so many years.
I heard more than 10 years ago at work, my coworkers thinking I am "some kind of prison" because my daily life is spread to broadcasters and my response was I contacted to local police headquarter and FBI, what both tossed my efforts like "if you just coming here, then we had no anything to chase". Well, they did not say it, they just send me to mental checkup, but how they took that type of contact, is not acceptable. If any of them has have some reason to chase, why they did not took it to case on time when I hunting them, why they or others did not do so. For me, it looked like waste of MY TAXPAYERS MONEY FOR FUN. And yes, I still push breaks, when I see bluelights, because I do not have reason to speed up.
They all should have better understanding, because I WAS immigrant, there is other countries involved and badly handled cases or "we think she has done something else than just nai (with her boyfriend/husband) can and will lead for other problems, what we all see now. I have not being charged for any real crimes and never been in prison either, so if my old coworkers or even friends believe that type of rumors believe me first and check up my paper records if you do not believe. My whole life became as game between Americans and others and is surely not good way to improve international relationships. Most people has seen it just fun, when they hear about my troubles but when it lead for this, some other people are required to pay my expenses after court charges or even without them, then that all "fun is over". It certainly do not look good image about how issues are handled if person has been 15 years in US and still need money from other country. I know, Finns say, no way and I understand it gives bad image about what kind of people coming from there. Reality is, I was in good way to get my career ladder with continues education and other built's to get regular life. It just ended for this "secret spying and broadcasting my brainactivity", what caused I lost my Computer Technician job and after that couldn't get any long term jobs because they used my brain to get that "nervous breakdown". They thought, they can just pressure me to go back to "old life" without these problems and losses are handled at all.
Best solution could be to support me to get back "normal life", problem is now, what is normal for person, who is "in everybody's head", in every song and every movie. I have had solution for this - it is participating international politics or being TV/radio host, then that reality gives more normal idea for others - all millions what that crime creates ends up for others, while I keep loosing money and chances to make it. Good example was, when I started here in Texas from empty lot - there was nothing to steal or take away until I started build it. My current home is not acceptable for most of people, but it has been damn good home for me and my "little doggy baby" and I keep it making looks like of any other home does. It just basing on how much money I have use for it. So, do not come cry, it is not acceptable, if you do not support I need that money what I "invoiced or charged in court". Loan can extend that wondering time, but it need to paid back too.
May 11, 2010
While my home building project continue, newscasters keep spreading these past life stories for reason, what are not understandable. They found out, I have been "around celebrities" earlier too as my "first kiss college sweetheart" was counted. It is not right, my situation effecting my past friends life too, but I am not surprised if some of them get heat, when they hear these lies about my life and where I coming from. Well, this "race horse raiser" was special for me, but surely his celebrity status gave him situations to see lot of people and surely he had always girl around. These investigators do not understand, I had seen most of these old friends later many times because of my dancing habits in Finland. This dancing culture includes that, even you dating or even be married you could still dance with others because it is very good social situation to talk and change latest news. Many years later of my school years, when I attended these dancing nights, I did chat also with this celebrity and saw his long term friend as he did saw mine, when I started dating with my future husband. I know, many Americans have negative opinion about dancing so close with other person, but that is reality in those country dancing places over there. Couple minute dance with common rules replace much more than usual "Hey, how you doing" and also you most likely remember your dancing partner for years, perhaps your lifetime.
When I am now top of the news, even negative way, I would like to say to these old friends, I am that same girl still what I was in my dancing years in Finland. Living 15 years in United States and being most of time in radios and TV's spotlights without any real interview has given some chances to my life, what most are related with publicity problems. I am not alcohol or drug user, but this political battle took my chances for regular work life, what I try to replace with art and participating for politics. Just this week I had a chance to vote first time as American citizen and that way I perhaps can get some issues solved.
I have been in - some years now and my handle, Niemis Mami, basing on this situation what I have with my past and how Americans and Finns see it now. Where that name coming is story what all Finnish milk cow people know, this name did belong the best one 30 years ago. This cow was recently died on time, when I was hired to be chief of caretakers on that same farm. Now 30 years later, I found out whole position was made up with these thought readers, when they tried to find good spot after I finish that same college, what that story told at start. Taking chief position, what is not open is nothing than creating fight situation and nobody do not want to give up their position for somebody who is new. I gave up there after 3 months - before I got sick and I really hope, these thought readers understands what this type of "behind of back hiring and breeding" doing. It has created similar situations with personal life also as this same guy wondered, why we where seated next to each other in theater, when students in this same college got tickets for theater at Christmas time.
I feel now, I am that "best Finnish cow", because surely I making money for others without getting more than hey for myself. Looks like they have had expectations for some high level positions, without understanding what that mean, when every single person in streets and on the stores and work places handle me as being some type of criminal and outsider, what have just increased my problems to find a job and personal situations. Those who are interested to get more details this website and what it was before www.traveldreamer1.com telling all about it. This all is also in my book Until Now, what is available at Amazon.com.
For those old friends, who are interested to keep touch I have home building project here in Texas, what surely can use some hands. I cannot offer more than a tent, because of my financial situation and this ongoing fight and it is must you contact before arriving, because otherwise you may end up to hands of law enforcement. You may bring your spouse and children or come alone and this note is same for Americans as some of them always complain, she only talk for Finns - what is not true.
And for Finnish leaders, I did resign from that cow position long time ago, so, please treat me as I am, middle of international politics, contacting directly to highest leaders of US, Finland and also in other states in EU. Later it has been not so often, but now, when direct TV discussion going on again, I continue also real life communication while my home building project gives me time for it.
May 6, 2010
How to survive when disaster hits, it is question for many, including me. It was disaster, when I found out I could not continue at Prime Computer at 2003 and I could not get other proper similar employment. Since then lot has happened, many little and big disasters and survival skills has been in big test day and night. I hear it over and over, she survived because they read her thoughts. I still has opinion, without it I might be in that goal situation, working in good computer position, having LOVING husband, happy family and good friends and stable financial life. I so far have not faced flood problems, but we all know any of those regular life expectations has not come true. What else I can blame than this brainactivity spread, where other people earning huge money and some loose huge money, including me.
My survival was originally driving to other "world", what of course did not help my job searches nor new home searches, but it helped my stress. Living in residential lot and same time build livable house is other type of survival, what helps stress and financial situation same time even many people still cannot accept, I left my cheapest apartment for this. Now in summer temperature it easy to believe anyone can do this with little money and with own hands. I never lost my believes there will be sunny and warm days, not even Christmas eve and day was cold, rainy and even snowy in this ever warm Texas location. It is so easy to loose even this, but with faith and with some friendly people, I could get that far, I can enjoy sunny days in my private pool. Work is never ending and money is always short, but day by day all situations be solved one or other way - without terroring others or making crimes. But, all this is still far away from that, what expectations has been years ago - going legally work to United States from high tech and "rich" country as Finland. I have been expected go back with richness and pile of goodies and what I have after 15 years - pile of bills and health problems - because of this thought reading took my chances for regular life and even for regular court handling. All my cases still sit on courts table or are dismissed because judges knows even lawyers do not lift of finger to sort out that problem - because other side always get advantage about my brain leak.
So, if that is not good example to handle little peoples problem, before it raises bubble like this, then do we still need better examples? My Invoice to leaders 2005 told all problems what this causes and problem was not fixed in any level. Pressure to put original parties around same table could prevent this all happened and all future similar chain disasters. It is still for some like mental illness, if you contact to highest leaders about big problem to get fixed it faster. If this is for some still some type of private family issue - why courts handling any other case, when everything can be handled like mine, just dump it under rug and keep target quiet and if it do not work - you know, what happens, you die. Sounds for me as third world 1800 century way to handle disagreements.
Did you heard, I was in singing competition? Of course I did not won, because winning basing people's opinion, but some people got idea I can sing and talk front of public "in fashion way". Yes, I can - because I did practice coast to coast, years and years to get some day that chance to improve my situation. I know, art is usually acceptable thing over religion and race and national issues and it could be my way to help other similar victims, if such of events are allowed me mentally and financially.
May 2, 2010
For some reason, I got idea there is some people who want I keep updating this website every day as I did earlier. This log has been up almost three years now and before log, there was actual pages with different topic at www.traveldreamer1.com as it was named before I got my US citizenship and name chance, what put me writing with my own name. Writing with own name should create situations, where these issues are actually handled also with me, not just broadcasted in TV and radio. I cannot stop repeating how many times I have contacted with these problems what this thought reading doing and has done, but results are still nothing and everytime when I discuss with somebody about this I need to start about what happened 15 years ago because people never confirm - "yeah, we heard about you from TV". It is easy to believe, because their stories are so far away from my today's life but same minute after they discuss with me they continue that same yelling "you should not coming here with your sins". For me, who says like that is not any kind of Christian or even well behaving person, especially when some channels published how many years it has been after my last sex acts... It is absolutely shame for all, my best working years are ruined with this battle, where real issues are never handled at all and my chances for normal life disappears with these lies and same time many people wondering, why we get all these weather disasters and all unnatural changes. For me it looks like something else than God's punishment, it is simply man made technics to punish Americans for reason one or other. I personally have anything to do with it and if I know, who doing it I could do lot to get it stopped. That do not include ending my own life for this, no way - I am innocent and victim of this war from start.
Well, I could update this every day and give comments for days news stories - it could be much better if I could get pay for it too and if Acer - example keep promises and fixes laptops under warranty, not breaking them more. Getting backup computer up and running is lot of work and speed is still half of new ones, when this backup was born on those days when I still worked in Prime Computer (I mention, all is paid with money)..Better solution is still somebody from CNN gives up their hour and let me talking over there and get paid too. Until it is in paper and in my hands, I do not lift a finger to get there with couple pennies in my pocket. I was their Atlanta Center so many times and available for interviews and discussions but only interest what they had was listen my thoughts while I sip my usual coffee in CNN Center. How much faster things can go with direct discussions. When you all realize, all my investigation and this writing IS HELP FOR AGAINST TERRORISM. I live in United States, my home and life is here, I do not want anybody attacking and I do not want issues with Finland are open and under silent battle, as they have been since I came here, because they always talk with somebody else.
April 30, 2010
In my "old life" this day is for party's (means dancing and no alcohol) and celebrating and preparing for tomorrows big day, May 1, what they call as Vappu. It is also day for "get that education hat" as I have wrote earlier in my website. Some people still thinking here and there, I did not have any education to work in other country, what is not true.
I did stop by again in areas convention center and pictured their unusual collection of hats. Some people mention, they are "yours" and that basing of course that mention about this day when "Finnish Manta" gets new and clean hat, what they doing there tomorrow again in Helsinki harbor. This time, I asking Finns send their replacement hats to me, because that is what they thought I am here, no education and work as hooker. That is how I feel they still handling my issues, even I am news topic day and night for years here and there.
Suomalaisille hattutemppuilijoille, tämän sivun Contact Us antaa automaattisen sähköpostin jossa postitusosoite hattujen ja "meet the millionaire" pukujen lähettämiseen. Tämä on minun tapani viettää Vappua nyt, kaiken tämän kiusaamisen ja taloudellisten ja henkisten tuhojen jälkeen. Kaikki tämä olisi estetty asiallisella keskustelulla asianosaisten kesken jo kymmeniä vuosia sitten ja tietenkin kunnollisella koulutuksella joka myös ottaa huomioon että jonakin päivänä ujotkin joutuvat yleisön eteen. Nyt olen yleisön edessä laulajana ja kansainvälisenä politiikkona - siitä huolimatta että edes CNN tai yksikään Suomalainen televisio- tai radioasema olis kertaakaan haastatellut koska kaikki luulevat että sen voi korvata ajatustenluvulla. Katsekontakti ja tilaisuus kommentteihin ja keskusteluihin ei ole koskaan mahdollista jos vain kuunnellaan ajatuksia ja - niinkuin nyt taas tapahtuu- keskustellaan todellisen televisio lähetyksen kanssa.
Hatutonta Vappua Suomalaiset - olette kaikki alikoulutettuja kun ette keskustele henkilökohtaisesti tästä asiasta kanssani.!
April 24, 2010
I have been now a week with this "TV normalcy", what is not same normalcy what it is for others, because I literally can "discuss with some anchors in their live broadcasting". How many other things has chanced, because my real life comments about what I hear from TV, goes back to TV stations and others, who listening, who knows they are. I have still opinion, that communication system is sick and it makes more sick people, because there is no real face and real "spots to talk". Getting a spot to talk is one problem for people WHO BEHAVE NICELY and it necessary have nothing to do with shyness. School system, where I grow up expected I raise my hand and teacher gives permit you can talk. That was the reason why my English class studies sound so hopeless here, when turn to talk came maybe 1-3 times per day, means my English speaking practices included up to 3 words in classroom, unless I started chatting with Spanish speaking students, what of course wanted to talk with Spanish, what I do not speak at all.
So, Finns did not teach that either, how to take other speakers talking spot, because nice people do not talk top of others or before they get their turn. I have applied for that "talking spot", especially for CNN AC360 hours, because I felt, it is not right and interest of mine nor interest of this country, lies what this channel has broadcast go out, because people believe them. So far that spot is not in paper and getting inside TV station is same much impossible than getting sticks of airplane without pilot license and position - no way. Looks like my best replacement was that screaming in phone, when echo repeated my words also to my ears and most likely all over the world. Whoever created that crazy system, created also reason for worldwide fight and war because noisy people have opinions and they are willing to mess their life for it, without thinking there is other ways to handle problems. There should. I did use those other ways - as you know, direct contact to highest leaders, phonecalls, faxes, letters and finally book. It works only if you collect people around, but in my position all of them called me crazy if I talked about this awful situation.
There is no laws, what says "this law is only valid if you have bunch of friends". It is same idea than democracy cannot kill one, who is right, because they have all other votes against, because they themself did law, this type of life ending is not allowe d.In my case many things has handled basing on most loud voice, not what is legal either. Simple example is, poor people - what I am now counted because this long time abuse ( I was not counted being poor 15 years ago), has rights for legal help in court, so where is mine? Court decisions cannot be done basing on who has access for lawyer - everybody have to have chance to get information what about they are charged for and help for proper court handling. They still using word "juvenile" with me and for sure, I did not have any cases in Finland nor here in US, this listening device just created illusion for some about being charged for something. If there was something, it should be law - I am sure it is there already, they cannot delay for 30-40 years until person is physically, mentally and financially so stressed that cannot offer herself proper place to live or continue job, what she was trained and experienced -until case is under handling somewhere. It just not should not happen in modern world! For me, in real life there has not been any REAL cases against me!
What coming to more local contacts, I can start communicate more with them if upper level educates them first, this is not mental illness, this is not reason to punish, ignore or kick out from community, what for I rather contact to DC than local leaders, if something happens, because it takes times when locals knows, this has going around years now. Dumping me to hospital just make it worst if they do not know background of this problem. My earlier 911 calls just made them mad because they had knowledge my problems was related with something what other instances already handling, without telling those others actually was in other country. It has been costly mistake from Georgia leaders and law enforcement and especially from their health care system. They had all situations to tell what was going on and how this could be handled better, but they choose that secrecy and dumping me more and more isolation, what causes old friends disappeared and new ones are just for moneymaking or other type of use. It is learning case for both countries to prevent this type of hype do not happen again.
Once again, this website and my book Until now is bible about what thought reading has done to my life, to other people's life and for international relations. If you get it without I get order and money - you see, there is other crime what causing my financial problems. Make sure, it is original publisher - me, who handles your order. Right now, it is available only from Amazon and orders should show up to my mail box.
April 20, 2010
It was like a step back to my "former situation", communicating with live TV anchors, as some of them welcomed me being watcher of regular TV broadcasting at home again. It really has been more than 6 months, when Charter told in SC "my TV is broken" and that is why I cannot see anything from my TV and what ends my home TV watching until now. It was not my TV, I think it was leaders opinion leaving me out of listening, what has some cons and pros. Pros's have been I have more time to do other things as this building project has taken all my time and energy. And cons's of course - my so called "boyfriends disappeared" because I could not see or hear what they "whispering or screaming" and other thing, that "other Tarja" took again my position to handle that problem, what causes I cannot get a job or keep one if I get one.
Problem is not skills, language or shyness, it is that, people created huge traffic in the street and over the phones than also their working habits are lower and disturbed with all kind of things. I did see what happened for Mr. Cooper, when I started talk and write back, these movie companies put his name for every sketch and song, even this experienced public person had hard time to handling it. I did saw that from his behavior during his TV broadcasting after that and his reactions combined with stories from his book gave me an idea, he could use some good friends and love - public celebrities never have too many real of them - as I count myself that category too. It all basing people's opinion, what affects that what job you can get, who you can date and where you can live. It was his comment "it's heartbreaking, you are so poor" - it is, but is should not be problem, if this issue is handled as a crime, because if that privacy leak is done from other country same time, when they let me legally move here to working, they or others still continue it. That has been done for shyness reason, not for any kind of conviction, because I never was in court before I came here in US. I cannot do other than blame Finnish schooling system, because it really do not prepare to get out of shyness and most of all, for public speaking situations. That kind of practice - as I have done now years - singing front of live audience, it is absolutely best way to practice and prevents you about surprises and you can be more prepared for what people yelling day and night.
TV cannot be that audience, because their anchors cannot stop their program for people's comments, not even for one - well, I am special, now they do that also, but in real life regular listeners cannot be in that situation. That is my note for Finnish education board - PUT EVERY CHILD TALKING EVERY WEEK GROUP OF PEOPLE. And especially those, who says, I cannot do that because "my legs start shaking and I coming red", with proper support it helps if you get started. When I was 10 or so my teacher put me saying "kukkokiekuu" front of class because I talked so quietly - that was damage to my shyness and totally unproper thing to do from teacher. Proper things were solo singing front of audience - what I did, believe or not, in my school years. My co-workers knew, I do not have problem to speak face to face with one, but with big group it is always same, most talkative's speak and others have no chance. If I was put front of presentation 10 years ago, I could fell of because my legs physically started shaking, after years practice it do not happen anymore. And that has not anything to do with that thought reading DEVICE, it was my decision and part of my presentation tour and investigation where this thought reading shows up and what people thinking about it.
What coming current political situation, my idea is still same - this is crime against humanity. If broadcasting of my thoughts are not "with good people's" hands and for that reason cannot be stopped, I should be visible part of political decisions. Because I am middle of that, being American and being from Finland, what is part of EU and Europe. There is still people, who counting I did work for Finland all this 15 years, because my last employment there was government office. That is not true, because there has been former resign and I still have that paper for proof, while some people in that office even never heard it. For example, if they count I did work for Finland same time when I got paychecks here, they should pay that "ulkomaanpäiväraha" - their per diem, what today is 64 Euros per day. 7 times 64 is 462, what most of cases is bigger than my regular weekly paycheck. All other Finns, who working for Finnish companies get that, plus housing payments, what made me totally un comparable combined with my low income level over there and with shyness and language barrier. My expectations was get computer career as I did, but it ended for this stealing yelling and that my thoughts are broadcasted to public, what means they do not stop talking about these. Now best guess is political career, with these contacts with highest leaders and ongoing public events. For those, who still says "You have been HUL" what ever that mean, I repeat: sending somebody to hospital checkup, when other people doing crime and you are blamed about it, it not make anybody mentally ill. Person who spread these lies is mentally ill and also criminal and that way, if there is justice , I will be the richest person in the world. So I keep on eye for pretty boys - feeling I am equal!
I was surprised, local Cancer care fundraising got too much money - they did not accept my book for donation. I think it could be good point to start conversation why I wrote this book - Sweetest Taboo - Anderson Cooper. He is still taboo - because he and other do not discuss why he did use my thoughts and daily life details mixed with imaginary stories in his TV program. He also did sexual comments in his live TV program and gave idea, he actually lives with me, when in real life it has been some Hill or other similar Tarja copy. His great smile was as acceptance I could talk with him as I did over the TV and with my email comments, what are in that book now. All the time, I hoped he coming interview as reporter and brings me up to real life and I do not mind if he shows up as real prince too. In reality, this is political fight and any parties get damage, me most of that. Keeping me out of that real discussion, this mess just coming bigger and bigger. I am American now and I give my diplomatic support leaders as I did during last administration, but still I am counted as just trouble, because I do not sit "at home at Atlanta" - with man, who ordered me to leave and who did not marry me, even he promised, he will. This thought reading destroyed all my relationships, first marriage and all others after that - because this issue is still under - do not answer, when I questioning!
April 16, 2010
Technical problems are so annoying, when they piling all same time as my Dish company did not get (read, did not want) my TV connection working, then their technicians broke whole TV and I have waited 2 weeks to get it back. New one has not ordered channels either and same yelling most likely continue, what I cannot understand. Also my tiny netbook got problems and because it was still under warranty (make note IT WAS NOT STOLEN) I needed to send it to service. So, now I have been totally out of news, not evenI pods or Internet channels. NPR news are sometimes in my list, but it is really waste of time when their system is -people send money to them to get their stories published and that way they are sometimes so imaginary and hateful against my tiny life. Obviously NPR has not any system to proof, have people's news true or not, only what they care is are they funny or otherwise newsworthy. Needless to say, NPR is one what I suing, because they spread stories with my name and private life mixed with imaginary stories. People always asking what it hurts to me if they do so? It does, that is reason why I lost jobs 10 years ago, now it is more causing financial and personal relationship problems, what causing physical and health problems too.
These thought readers thought I never find out it, even I told several people my all phonecalls are listened and all talks in the car goes out too and that was already when I was married more than 10 years ago. Because this material has gone for songs and movies couple decades already many coworkers knew it from first day and that is why my chances for normal working life was very limited. Looks like people in Finland did not compared at all what news here in US telling and if they did, they thought it has no meaning for their life. It is very hard to understand this issue has handled from start with idea - they never discuss with me at all directly. Using speakers in warehouse, were noise is big problem was their system 15 years ago. Still now, when I go shopping for Walmart or any place they using same system - talking with warehouse speakers about my daily life, giving nonsense advises what they want I do or so. That is really big reason why my friends keep disappearing, because it so wrong and awful when nobody cares to stop it. Same time these same people go to churches to get their nasty things forgiven and hoping, I go to hospital. They thinking, when I use healthcare services, that same do not happen there. Of course it happen, because they listen same news and stories and that is why I do not have children because their "special treatments" what ever that have been long time ago. All this just give reasons for International fights, because in my situation there is so many other countries involved being born and traveled in Europe.
I want also mention today, it has been 11 years for last so called mental treatment, so those people who has just heard about it, think about little. I have worked years after that, studied, experienced couple "nervous breakdowns" but not been hospitalized because reason is totally political and financial causing me awful stress, what my coast to coast driving has been best example and best treatment also. Everybody knows, my driving is not high speed and that is why I am not involved accidents. It is just best way to get something else to think and perhaps meet more friendly people too. Picking this city, where I live now, has not been accident, nor lottery, but because there is no much differences anymore, it is totally financial reason combined with weather what actually brought me here. Unfortunately this same game continue here - Go somewhere else, you can't stay here - even now I own my own home where I stay. This story is spread so badly, when many still try to put me back to life where I was 20 or 30 years ago, forgetting what these experiences and pile of unfinished lawsuits mean to my life. For many, it still means they think I do not talk at all or I am too shy to talk - Now they hates my dog, because he is my handy talking buddy, when others still keep hiding. It is hard to talk, if there is no time and place for it, talking alone as many cellphone users now doing is not real talking, but I have taken it part of my daily routine too because of cellphone and that, my neighborhood keep yelling day and night. If somebody thinking it disappears in big cities like in New York - I can tell, it does not. People know same way me there than in any other city. It only disappears if some people finally sees, where this type of hatecrime/word game ends - it ends for war! Check my earlier website logs from couple years ago, I told, it will leads for it if this issue is not solved with me. Now it is too late with all these nuclear hassles, some people got enough.
Needless to mention I called several main parties together 2006 to Dallas Hilton - no interest. Year old Invoice in that time should be handled there, but - no interest. What need to happen before that interest raises, to listen my side of story and advises?
March 30, 2010
Again so many days has gone and no updates. Mostly, because my building project still takes so much time and because I still not have own TV with satellite or cable. That issue has taken half of my time in last week, when satellite company tried to get my tiny TV showing programs and after 5 different technicians, it still not find any channels and actually got damaget during last installation and now I just waiting when I get it back from warranty service. It has been extremely stressfull for me, first because of attitude of satellite company using my private information what all broadcasters spreads and annoying me little things like "Your credit card cannot be that one what is pre-paid", after they asking to run credit report. After bankruptcy, it is ABSOLUTELY must you have to open new credit card accounts to create good history. Only that and job can fix it some day for perfect - meaning, of course you have to take care about payments also. Companies, who do not accept prepaid credit cards doing damage to their customers same time when it is only card what is guaranteed to be in good condition. I have been in teaching position again in this satellite case - first with this "never broadcast your customers credit information" and second, what installation technicians should do when they find out they do not know how to get installation done. In my case not get channels is mostly likely man made bullying, but in other cases, it should be customer service issue number one - If you do not know how to install you find out it for next time how others has done it or even call to manufacturer to get help as I pressure to do them. Leaving customer weeks without connection is service worth of 0 point and I think level of my voice has expressed about my dissatisfaction of such of bully work. For reality, this time I mention company's name too, it is Dish Network. My problems is very much related with all these and broadcasting companies, so get things done perfectly is more than important to get that hate crime sinking.
Other thing what my "TV fellah" remembers to remind is that fact I do not go regularly to church. Reality is, this crime actually is basing what church and my relatives and friends and coworkers has done and that is directly connected with question, where to look help. I could not imagine how my life could be different now, when wew ent to talk local church to get wedding 1993 and pastor actually deny willingness to get that done. We could had real church wedding with relatives and friends like people usually doing, but in my case my interest for church weddings disappeared for years and I could not even look others weddings at the TV for many years without crying. It was hurt to my tiny life and it is still not fixed. I went several times local churches here in US in 1998 and later but this broadcasting yelling was already so awful, I could not think why I have to listen it, when most of stuff is not even correct and any of that, no reason for public talk. Now, when I have advertised my proposal, going to church is again like - other people questioning where is he and are you going to marry and mostly like they end up to try wed me to anyone who shows up, when right one is still as "image in my computer" or other similar "hard to work with" person. It is needless to remind, religious disagreements are the biggest reason for fights and wars, so it is very sensitive area to talk about. I have planned for several months to stop by local church, just for test, how much yelling still goes on - and when I doing it, I certainly can use my presentation skills if they want, but most likely it ends up they blaming me about hurting churches image, because my stories are real life crime solving stories, where many church goers are actually in guilty bench. For comparison of problem, did it hurt my current community members how many people were same time in sauna 20 years ago or other similar past things? When they ruining my working and personal life spreading those stories and adding all kind of unrelated adds, even it not hurt their life then or now, because I do not count who sleeps with who or who takes showers in whose homes. These issues should be private but this thought reading not keep anything secret because broadcasting industry makes money with it - and I loosing. Church goers should raise voice against such of abuse, especially when it happens in churches too. It is certainly not topic to talk in church, what happened in my bedroom while I slept with my legal husband and what most likely has been recorded and spread also as public fun - and reason was WHAT?
her job again. Other affect was stupid comments from my sister, who called to "verify am I still alive" - as I see it now, because her comments was about New York, "they did fly too early there, there were not enough people inside". Her joke get me angry immediately and I said how you can say like that? My sisters never liked my American job life and support from them is very much similar - they have done lot to destroy my life here, what of course mean, I cannot work or live in Finland either. They are not of course only ones who doing it, but because being unmarried after divorce, it always causes that situation, where is your nearest relatives?. That is why I keep "proposing for marriage" some, who express interest, regardless all odds are against it never happen. Let say, it is worth to try, because my life is already so scrude up and related with TV's and radios. Even those have done biggest damage, living middle of it more than 10 years, I could not know how live without.
invitation or "just bring that limo and tell address and pay"! I have purposely kept more quiet time, because I take time for raise a puppy and make preparations for "life after recovery downtime", what have been very useful to load batteries, what I have used so many years without any kind of real help. Pile of unhandled issues is still huge and everyday I found things, what are too late to do or just in last minute. All this because I did not get chance to continue in my working life here 2003 and these work related problems were not solved, because they were caused by this awful combination - some people still thinking it is impossible to repeat human brain activity! That has happened to me, they are broadcasted as "being real words" and most of all, they are broadcasted in several other countries as they are spoken there. That has created idea, "she is in Iraq, she is in Afghanistan, she is in Russia - all same time, when in real life I have been from May 2006 all the time only in mainland US and before that in Europe (Finland is part of Europe too), traveling between US and them.
If people here in US could tell what needs to be done to solve this awful situation, this all never happened. But regardless how many times I was in doctors check up and treatments, how many times I called police to check my home, because some people knows to tell what emails I writing or what type of food I make or anything, what happened at my home, without I told so. Those times, when something was taken or broken windows was found, it was not enough for proof, because it was also fixed already. There were comments "we do not handle it - they do" and if that they, was Finns, they did not handle it either. I did handle it my way. Traveling enough many places to see and hear what is the difference, where it happens and where not! Results has been long time in my website www.traveldreamer1.com and now in my books, what you certainly can order to help my finances and spread my details, what are my facts about my experiences. I see this situation as careless handling of international disagreement. I do not have official assignment from either government, but I certainly see, I did duties, what belongs to Presidents of both countries. I put these details out for discussions to people who are involved. Now years later looks like everyone is involved and with these websites and because broadcasting companies still copies my details, they also go for everyone. Main problem still is - I do not get paid for this! This all has made me very stressful, mostly because of safety problems and financial losses. Those, who still thinking I am just sick, when I telling about thought reading, I would suggest to sign up them to mental check up - including my sisters, because radios and televisions tell it all the time - these have been just her thoughts and brain activities, what includes movies, TV news and imaginations about all what I see, hear, feel and remember! This type of fooling should end and damages for involved be covered.
when I know, where I will be in next year.
